Desiring the past, despising the present-
Appreciating today when yesterday is appealing
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[July 08, 2008]
I
woke up yesterday at 10am, an hour before my first class (at Lincoln
Christian College). I ate lunch at noon and finished up my classes
by 3pm. I walked back to my dorm room and spent about an hour on
the Internet: Facebook, finding Photoshop brushes, YouTube, and
CNN.com. After that I played about an hour of Halo 2.
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Then
I walked to dinner, checked my mail and sat in The Warehouse for a
bit. Afterwards I worked on some homework and watched a couple
episodes of The Office. By this time I was very tired, so I went to
bed.
Many times I feel like I’m wasting my life
away, sitting through lectures that are structured by a flawed
system of education, playing virtual games, and constantly looking
towards the future, thinking things will get better. A lot of times
we think about our past, when we were younger, and want our lives to
be like that again.
I remember how much fun I used to have with my
friends at recess, Chuck E. Cheese’s, and DZ- Discovery Zone. I
remember watching cartoons before having to stand outside for the
bus.
It’s almost as if I am starting to think that
the best parts of life are in the past, when I was younger. How
much time do we spend in frustration due to responsibilities,
deadlines, monetary issues and personal lives? We feel all these
things and then long for the way things used to be.
If we are all hung up on the past, and desiring
for that rather than what we have now, how does that reflect our
understanding and appreciation of our present lives?
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We are longing for something else, a different lifestyle, an easier
lifestyle, the lifestyle that we had when we were younger.
Maybe instead of desiring this, we should learn
to embrace our past for what it was, and start living our present
lives to the fullest- now!
We need to learn that our current lifestyles
can be just as appreciated and desired as the lifestyle we used to
have. How does God see us when we desire our past more than what he
is giving us right now in the present?
We have around 12 hours in our day to spend
doing whatever we want to do. How are you spending your 12 hours?
When I looked at the way I spent my 12 hours, I was disappointed.
We could be doing blessed things for God in the
twelve hours, as well as having a God-centered attitude while doing
them.
When was the last time we sat in silence? When
was the last time we reflectively wrote in a journal or diary for
longer than 20 minutes? When was the last time we actually prayed a
list of prayers that has been piling up?
We
should live our lives to the fullest in complete appreciation for
the present
[Jiryis Shaheen - LCC student)]
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