Desiring the past

Desiring the past, despising the present-
Appreciating today when yesterday is appealing

[June 27, 2008] I woke up yesterday at 10am, an hour before my first class (at Lincoln Christian College). I ate lunch at noon and finished up my classes by 3pm. I walked back to my dorm room and spent about an hour on the Internet: Facebook, finding Photoshop brushes, YouTube, and CNN.com. After that I played about an hour of Halo 2.

Then I walked to dinner, checked my mail and sat in The Warehouse for a bit. Afterwards I worked on some homework and watched a couple episodes of The Office. By this time I was very tired, so I went to bed.

Many times I feel like I’m wasting my life away, sitting through lectures that are structured by a flawed system of education, playing virtual games, and constantly looking towards the future, thinking things will get better. A lot of times we think about our past, when we were younger, and want our lives to be like that again.

I remember how much fun I used to have with my friends at recess, Chuck E. Cheese’s, and DZ- Discovery Zone. I remember watching cartoons before having to stand outside for the bus.

It’s almost as if I am starting to think that the best parts of life are in the past, when I was younger. How much time do we spend in frustration due to responsibilities, deadlines, monetary issues and personal lives? We feel all these things and then long for the way things used to be.

If we are all hung up on the past, and desiring for that rather than what we have now, how does that reflect our understanding and appreciation of our present lives?

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We are longing for something else, a different lifestyle, an easier lifestyle, the lifestyle that we had when we were younger.

Maybe instead of desiring this, we should learn to embrace our past for what it was, and start living our present lives to the fullest- now!

We need to learn that our current lifestyles can be just as appreciated and desired as the lifestyle we used to have. How does God see us when we desire our past more than what he is giving us right now in the present?

We have around 12 hours in our day to spend doing whatever we want to do. How are you spending your 12 hours? When I looked at the way I spent my 12 hours, I was disappointed.

We could be doing blessed things for God in the twelve hours, as well as having a God-centered attitude while doing them.

When was the last time we sat in silence? When was the last time we reflectively wrote in a journal or diary for longer than 20 minutes? When was the last time we actually prayed a list of prayers that has been piling up? We should live our lives to the fullest in complete appreciation for the present

[Jiryis Shaheen - LCC student)]

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